a christian or not???
Although I usually keep this space to share my vacation pictures as you may see below I thought id share a lil something that has been on my mind for a while. I would love to have your opinion on it. The thought of writing this message came to me after i just received a note on myspace about an hour ago from someone asking me if i found lord Jesus and accepted him into my live
People who know me know i am ( was ) a very religious person. From a very young age i went to a strict Christian school where i prayed around 5 times a day and read and sang from the bible 3 times every day. I loved it. It thought me the message. the story and basically i loved singing and anything to get out of the usual book related stuff in school.
My parents weren't ever that religious but when i turned 18 i found the need to grow closer to my god and have " a relationship" with Jesus. I didn't really feel good around that time and i started going to church. Its not a usual sit down and be quiet church but very lively with singing, dancing and healing. I went at least 1 time a week sometimes 2 and i loved it. I felt " the spirit" and it made me comfortable.
Later on i started realizing the me that was going to church trying to be like everyone else wasn't me. they were in Church all weekend and i loved going out so i did. My feelings were if ur not hurting anyone why would it be bad? My explanation was the Holy Spirit is your conscious. I wasn't feeling bad so why would god or Jesus think i was doing a bad thing and by the way, Jesus made wine so that would mean i can have a tequila right??
After a while i started realizing i didn't believe in the bible. I thought the core was correct but allot of stuff around it was made up to have control over people. I'm not ignorant and i know the church its history and the fact that the Vatican is keeping all sorts of lies in those libraries. The bible is made out of different stories by different people who were witnesses in the time of Jesus or who had miraculous talks with God. But my question was, why if everyone in that time kept a journal, why didn't Jesus? Maybe he did? Maybe we are just not seeing it or, maybe they didn't because they never existed. Besides that, loads of people this day in age claim they talk to god or Jesus and we now put them in a mental hospital so why should we believe those people than.
I saw a documentary called " religulous" and found myself agreeing with everything that was being said.
I held my thoughts aside and went on with live feeling almost guilty of not believing the way i should be thinking of how i may be punished when the day came where i had to tell him why i doubted him.
Than came Zeitgeist. Zeitgeist is a series of video's about different subject claiming to tell the real truth. They have a video about the money scheme,911 and the greatest story ever told " religion". The video starts by stating that knowledge is the only thing u have and that you need to know every side and don't be ignorant Familiar? I'm a Janet Jackson fan and i grew up with songs like the knowledge and the last thing i want to be is ignorant so i watched it.
zeitgeist part 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61ReohCr35U
zeitgeist part 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auz1oF6pfJc
zeitgeist part 3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOF9no1joPA
I do now no longer claim to be a Christian. I do however keep signs of Christianity in my house cause i feel comfortable with them like crosses and a Jesus statue and a prayer on my wall but i will no longer be living as someone who finds the bible the truth cause i don't think it is. Don't get me wrong. This is not only the bible but also every religious book out there. I do believe in a god and if that is the sun than great. I know that the Zeitgeist isn’t giving us the full facts and there are some pretty big mistakes in the movie but the overall story seems more believable than the bible ever did. Don’t get me wrong! I’m not saying Christianity or believing is wrong. It helped me a great deal but I guess all the Disney fairytales in my childhood did as well.
As for now i believe in me, in love and in doing what you love. I believe in being happy and being good to others. I believe in karma and in knowledge. Other than that im clueless but maybe that is the way it should have been all this times.
People who know me know i am ( was ) a very religious person. From a very young age i went to a strict Christian school where i prayed around 5 times a day and read and sang from the bible 3 times every day. I loved it. It thought me the message. the story and basically i loved singing and anything to get out of the usual book related stuff in school.
My parents weren't ever that religious but when i turned 18 i found the need to grow closer to my god and have " a relationship" with Jesus. I didn't really feel good around that time and i started going to church. Its not a usual sit down and be quiet church but very lively with singing, dancing and healing. I went at least 1 time a week sometimes 2 and i loved it. I felt " the spirit" and it made me comfortable.
Later on i started realizing the me that was going to church trying to be like everyone else wasn't me. they were in Church all weekend and i loved going out so i did. My feelings were if ur not hurting anyone why would it be bad? My explanation was the Holy Spirit is your conscious. I wasn't feeling bad so why would god or Jesus think i was doing a bad thing and by the way, Jesus made wine so that would mean i can have a tequila right??
After a while i started realizing i didn't believe in the bible. I thought the core was correct but allot of stuff around it was made up to have control over people. I'm not ignorant and i know the church its history and the fact that the Vatican is keeping all sorts of lies in those libraries. The bible is made out of different stories by different people who were witnesses in the time of Jesus or who had miraculous talks with God. But my question was, why if everyone in that time kept a journal, why didn't Jesus? Maybe he did? Maybe we are just not seeing it or, maybe they didn't because they never existed. Besides that, loads of people this day in age claim they talk to god or Jesus and we now put them in a mental hospital so why should we believe those people than.
I saw a documentary called " religulous" and found myself agreeing with everything that was being said.
I held my thoughts aside and went on with live feeling almost guilty of not believing the way i should be thinking of how i may be punished when the day came where i had to tell him why i doubted him.
Than came Zeitgeist. Zeitgeist is a series of video's about different subject claiming to tell the real truth. They have a video about the money scheme,911 and the greatest story ever told " religion". The video starts by stating that knowledge is the only thing u have and that you need to know every side and don't be ignorant Familiar? I'm a Janet Jackson fan and i grew up with songs like the knowledge and the last thing i want to be is ignorant so i watched it.
zeitgeist part 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61ReohCr35U
zeitgeist part 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auz1oF6pfJc
zeitgeist part 3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOF9no1joPA
I do now no longer claim to be a Christian. I do however keep signs of Christianity in my house cause i feel comfortable with them like crosses and a Jesus statue and a prayer on my wall but i will no longer be living as someone who finds the bible the truth cause i don't think it is. Don't get me wrong. This is not only the bible but also every religious book out there. I do believe in a god and if that is the sun than great. I know that the Zeitgeist isn’t giving us the full facts and there are some pretty big mistakes in the movie but the overall story seems more believable than the bible ever did. Don’t get me wrong! I’m not saying Christianity or believing is wrong. It helped me a great deal but I guess all the Disney fairytales in my childhood did as well.
As for now i believe in me, in love and in doing what you love. I believe in being happy and being good to others. I believe in karma and in knowledge. Other than that im clueless but maybe that is the way it should have been all this times.
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